Welcome to my vulnerability soiree, some great news and a little overshare.
A few months ago (like 25 months or so), as I was dreaming up my One Woman Show there were so many moments I wanted to pick up the phone and call my dad or my mum. If you're an orphan like I am you can probably relate to that unquenchable void of not having your parents around.
I began blogging about what a hotline in Heaven would look like...Who would answer the phone?
Coming off a very successful run of the One Woman Show (Did you attend? Gosh, you missed OWT!), I shared the idea of Heaven's Hotline with a few of the team.
Steve prepared a treatment and I decided we could go with it. Sharon agreed to be my star supporting actress and we nabbed a few friends to be background actors (Cindy DaCosta, Nicolette John-Chandler, Nahla Chandler, Arianne Matthew and Keegan Boisson-Yates).
We wrapped production of film in a few days and submitted to Riff Raff Film Festival NYC.
If I am being completely honest, I didn't want to submit the film. After all the hard work I told Steve I was having doubts about submitting the film. It's a very personal story and I didn't think it was perfect. True confession: I never think anything is good enough. Also, my fears and anxiety can be very crippling and have cramp my style often times. Steve and I had a difficult conversation after which he convinced me that we needed to submit the film. We did.
The film was accepted into the Festival. Wait what??!?
Heaven's Hotline the short film was accepted into the festival. I flew to New York, attended the screening and came back to Florida. Admittedly the screening wasn't what I imagined it to be. No red carpet, no TMZ....sigh.
A couple weeks later I received an email presenting me with the BEST ACTRESS award!
Hello! TMZ you missed OWT! Better get in line
Admittedly, when I received the email my first thought was that they got it wrong. I didn't deserve the award. I wasn't happy with my performance. Dammit! I didn't even think the film was worthy of being submitted!
But that's what Imposter Cindy-Ann-Drome does. She convinces me that I am not worthy that perhaps one day people will discover I am not talented at all. She whispers that one day the world will discover I was never even funny! Like WTF! Bish, I am funny as hell.
Hear me out though, Cindy-Ann-Drome wins these battles a lot. Too often
This one time she lost!
I won BEST ACTRESS. I DESERVED it. We ARE going to CELEBRATE it the only way I think fitting.
With an end of year popup comedy show.
Yep! On December 29, we're having a pop up comedy show and premiering 'Heaven's Hotline'
See flyer and link below
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